Road.

Sometimes everything can seem to be lining up and making so much sense, and it's just not right because God isn't there. Other times something makes no sense at all and God is saying, yes! yes! come, I am here!

Sometimes I am super passionate about a certain idea or an aspect of God, or I think I see what he's up to, and then a few weeks or months or years later I'm all excited because I see a new aspect of things, and it's totally different than what I previously saw.

I am seeing that this is what its like to walk with God. I am seeing that there is no consistency except in who he is and his continual nearness. I am seeing that life is so much more about learning what it feels like to be near to God, to hear Him speaking, to obey Him, and so much less about getting everything right.

It is so much more about a continual conversation with God, and so much less about approaching him with questions and walking away with all the answers.

And this is reflected in the nature of life. I have to keep going back to him, because it's a process of discovery. I go to him with my questions and my longings and my hurts and I have to keep coming back because he doesn't give me all the answers in one fell swoop.

The mystery that is life, this journey of discovery that we are all on, is rigged, in the best possible sense...we need Him. Always.